Unsupported in this World
It feels as though I have been pushing up against everything lately, and feeling not very supported. This gives me the opportunity to look at why? Why not relax into it and go with the flow?
To look at the movement of water, how it just moves with ease, over rocks, and under logs. How can I emulate this free flowing water? For me, I need to realize that life is a journey, that I get to go on to learn how to love myself and show up in the world for me and others. That everything else is an illusion. My house, my car, my cloths, even how I look!
The only thing that is real is my relationship with myself, others and a higher power if you believe in one. And then this leads me back to how to have a relationship with myself? This is something I have to be conscious of every minute of the day. When I am feeling contracted or trigger with something or someone, to explore my feelings around it, not to blame the person who might have triggered me but to connect to those feelings and grow from them.
It’s just like realizing that I am pushing up against everything and life seems harder. To realize that these are feelings that I had when I was a child. To have a little conversation with my child within, listen to the feelings wrapped around those feelings and then step up and be a good mother and father to that child within. This might look like, just shifting how I am doing something…Stop pushing and relax and go with the flow.
Throughout the day, pay attention to your body, and how you feel. Are you contracted or upset? If so, don’t ignore those feelings. It’s like if you had a child of your own, and he or she was feeling badly, maybe really sad, would you ignore her feelings? I don’t think so! So show up for that little child inside of you, and be a good mother and father. Every time I feel unsupported in this world, it’s because I am not being supportive to myself. Experiment with really paying attention to your feelings for one day and attending to those feelings and see how you feel. Let me know how the day lays out for you.